Reflecting on myself.
Well, blog is the only place where I can share my feelings&thoughts I suppose.
I need someone to talk to, but I have no idea who to turn to.
Who will understand how I feel?
Who were in this situation before?
I know I'm too young to say I know alot of things.
But I think I've seriously been through more than everyone else at my age.
For now, I just need some time to stable myself.
After which, I will let go out whatever that does not belong to me from the start.
I know, the one I really love is still him.
&yesh, mayb it's because I miss him too much,
That's why I wanted to drown myself by working&hanging out.
Mayb that's why, people around me tend to get the wrong idea.
I know he likes me&cares alot for me.
But I'm way too young for him.
I know I shouldnt stay too close to him if I'm not interested in him.
But machine do breakdowns at times, &what's more I'm a human being.
I know what I'm doing&definitely I'm not cheating on him.
Because I've never promise him anything or tell him I like him&stuff.
All I want was just being friends¬hing more.
Give me a little bit more time, I promise I will be myself once again.
The strong&independent Meizhen.
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5th March, Wednesday.
work as usual. after work, meet up with Hweehan. went Newton there for dinner with Huimin, Hweehan&Steven. after eating, went Orchard for a walk&home after that.
6th March, Thursday.
after work, Steven came to pick me up. went to pick Xujun&her Sister. then went to pick Nancy. after that, send Xujun's Sister to her Mother's workplace then headed Town to have dinner. after dinner, brought Nancy to Mount A to see doctor as she's having diarrhea since Tuesday. after that, Xujun&I were yearning to go Kbox. so headed Amk there. sing till 2plus. home after that.
7th March, Friday.
work as usual. today was the last day working with Huimin as she's going overseas next week&I'm leaving the job on the 14th. I will definitely miss the days working with her. well, meet up with Gillian&Peixuan at Amk Hub around 9pm. waited for Gillian to end work then headed Serangoon Garden there derh Pub. meet up with Queenie over there. eat, drink&sing over there. home around 1plus.
Beloved Lianiee. (:
8th March, Saturday.
I slept my Saturday away, woke up only at 630pm. LOLS. I didnt went for Yoga also. I'm exhausted, seriously worn out.
Suddenly I feel that life is so meaningless.
School is starting soon in another 1month's time.
Is it a good or bad thing, I also dont know.
I'm just wondering what am I doing to my own life.
Give me a break.
Walk away, Loved. 11:02:00 PM `
Joanne Lum Mei Zhen. ♥
